Wake up alone

''It's okay in the day I'm staying busy, tied up enough so I don't have to wonder where is he. Got so sick of crying, so just lately when I catch myself I do a 180. I stay up clean the house at least I'm not drinking, run around just so I don't have to think about thinking. That silent sense of content that everyone gets just disappears soon as the sun sets.
If I was my heart I'd rather be restless, the second I stop the sleep catches up and I'm breathless this ache in my chest as my day is done now. The dark covers me and I cannot run now, my blood running cold I stand before him it's all I can do to assure him when he comes to me. I drip for him tonight drowning in me we bathe under blue light.
He gets fierce in my dreams seizing my guts, he floats me with dread soaked to the soul, he swims in my eyes by the bed pour myself over him moon spilling in and I wake up alone.''
Amy Winehouse

Esse texto, que é a música Wake Up Alone, além de estar contextualizado com minha vida, é uma homenagem a Amy. Ontem ela foi encontrada morta em seu apartamento. Infelizmente já era de se esperar que morresse jovem, pelo uso frequente de drogas, mas é claro, que fiquei imensamente chateada. É muito talento pra ir embora, fará muita falta.
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